Pig= What was I thinking?..

Fuck. Why must I not follow my heart? Why do I feel so hurt after saying all those shit to her.. Ya. I got to act as if I am very happy and willing to accept with the decision, but it totally sucks. It hurts deep in my heart.. I cried. Yup. Just now while messaging her.. I got no one to talk to now. No one.

They are enjoying themselves now in pub whereas me, alone now, in the living room. Family members are asleep now.. No no.. Not they didn't called me to go, I was the one trying to be Emo and all this shit. Fuck. I got freaking no mood now.. Damn moodless. Not even watching Ultraman cheers me up..

Never mind.. I will just forget about it..


I am fucking depress now..


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