Pig=Labtop=Bye bye..

Hai.. I wont be writing blog so often le.. My er jie going to return her laptop to the school le.. Todae will be the last day le.. Lol.. Nevermind de la.. Maybe I go Cyber use or what ba.. Will try to write as many as possible ok??.. Hm.. Didnt really happened much la.. Haha.. Just Bore.. I am thinking, no computer already very sian le.. Hai.. When Can I get a New COMPUTER??!! Argh!.. Nevrmind.. Bye bye.. See you guys around..

Read this from one of the email my friend send to me..

Dear Mommy, I am in Heaven now, sitting on Jesus' lap. He loves me and cries with me; for my heart has been broken. I so wanted to be your little girl. I don't quite understand what has happened. I was so excited when I began realizing my existance. I was in a dark, yet comfortable place. I saw I had fingers and toes. I was pretty far along in my developing, yet not near ready to leave my surroundings. I spent most of my time thinking or sleeping. Even from my earliest days, I felt a special bonding between you and me. Sometimes I heard you crying and I cried with you. Sometimes you would yell or scream, then cry. I heard Daddy yelling back. I was sad, and hoped you would be better soon. I wondered why you cried so much. One day you cried almost all of the day. I hurt for you. I couldn't imagine why you were so unhappy. That same day, the most horrible thing happened. A very mean monster came into that warm, comfortable place I was in. I was so scared, I began screaming, but you never once tried to help me. Maybe you never heard me. The monster got closer and closer as I was screaming and screaming, "Mommy, Mommy, help me please; Mommy, help me." Complete terror is all I felt. I screamed and screamed until I thought I couldn't anymore. Then the monster started ripping my arms off. It hurt so bad; the pain I can never explain. It didn't stop. Oh, how I begged it to stop. I screamed in horror as it ripped my leg off. Though I was in such complete pain, I was dying. I knew I would never see your face or hear you say how much you love me. I wanted to make all your tears go away. I had so many plans to make you happy. Now I couldn't; all my dreams were shattered. Though I was in utter pain and horror, I felt the pain of my heart breaking, above all. I wanted more than anything to be your daughter. No use now, for I was dying a painful death. I could only imagine the terrible things that they had done to you. I wanted to tell you that I love you before I was gone, but I didn't know the words you could understand. And soon, I no longer had the breath to say them; I was dead.I felt myself rising. I was being carried by a huge angel into a big beautiful place. I was still crying, but the physical pain was gone. The angel took me to Jesus and set me on His lap. He said He loved me, and He was my Father. Then I was happy. I asked Him what the thing was that killed me. He answered, "Abortion. I am sorry, my child; for I know how it feels." I don't know what abortion is; I guess that's the name of the monster. I'm writing to say that I love you and to tell you how much I wanted to be your little girl. I tried very hard to live. I wanted to live. I had the will, but I couldn't; the monster was too powerful. It sucked my arms and legs off and finally got all of me. It was impossible to live. I just wanted you to know I tried to stay with you. I didn't want to die. Also, Mommy, please watch out for that abortion monster. Mommy, I love you and I would hate for you to go through the kind of pain I did. Please be careful.
Love,Your Baby Girl

Pig=BUffet Dinner=Mum's Birthday!
Had my dinner at a buffet restaurant in Tampines more.. Was celebrating Mum's birthday.. Da jie, My Da jie boyfriend, Er jie, Mummy and me.. Had a very Wonderful Dinner.. Had Lots of fun also.. Hahaa... Bought a pair of Earring for my mum.. Very nice.. Took so photo.. Take a look later.. After that went home le.. Let Ki ki out.. Phew.. Never pee.. Lol.. Went to sleep after a while..
Never go to school todae.. Doctor gave me two days Mc.. He said that I have somehow hurt my leg's vein.. Ya.. So never attend classes.. Boring.. Watching Quill.. A Dog show.. Very nice.. Lol.. Ok.. Got to go..

Took this photo in the restaurant..

The restaurant..

A photo with me and mum..

Da jie and mum..

Da jie and my brother in law..

Me and Da jie..

Me and Er jie..

Me and brother in law.. Act sia.. Dont wanna smile..

Brother in law de Ear.. Lol..

The Present for MUM!!

1. Name- Pig/Wei/Shiwei/Desmond

2. Piercing- none

3. Tattoos- none

4. Height - 169 or 170.. I AM SHORT!

5. Shoe size- 10 or 11

6. Hair color- Brownish..

-last-

7. wat u doing?- Using Labtop..

8. song u listened to- Techno_ Miracle..

9. cd u bought- Sun Yan zi..

10. person u called- My da jie..

-do-

11. u have a crush on someone- No.. Use to have..

12. u wish u could live somewhere else- yup.. With my friends only..

13. u think abt suicide- No..

14. u believe in online dating- No..

15. others find u attractive-No..

16. u want more piercings- I wan on my left ear.. I wan tatoo also..

17. u like cleaning- Ok ok la..

18. u write in cursive or print-Print

-have u-

19. ever cried over a girl- Ya..

20. ever cried over a boy- No la.. Me not Gay..

21. ever lied 2 someone- Of Cause..

22. ever been in a fist fight- Ya..

-what-

23. shampoo do u use- The green tea de..

24. wat are u scared of- Rat..

25. number of times i cried for someone..- Two or three times..

26. of times i have had my heart broken- 2 or 3..

27. of times my name appear in the newspaper- None..

28. of scars i have on my body- One.. On my back..

29. of things in my past that i regret- Ya.

-favourite-

29. 5 letter word- Fuck you.. Lol..

30. cereal- Milo.

31. chewing gum- I dont know... I just eat. I dont remember.. Lol..

32.color(s)- Black and white..

33. day(s) of week- Saturday..

34. flower(s)- None..

35. least fave day- MOnday..

36. special skills- Nonee...

37. summer/winter- Winter..

-have u ever-

38. gone out in public in ur pyjamas- Ya.. Buy my supper..

39. cried during a movie- Ya...

40. been to new york- No..

41. china- No

42. canada- No...

43. mekah- No la..

44. hong kong- No...

45. japan- Wish I could.. Hai..

*random*

46. What time is it now- 5.41pm.

47.apples or bananas- apples..

48. Blue or Red- Blue..

49. wad are u gonna do after this- Going out to celebrate my mum's birthday..

50. wat was d last thing u ate- My lunch..

51. wat do u do when u're bored- Sleep..

52. last noise u heard- Ki ki Barking..

53. last time u went out of state/province- Na.. Very long never le..

-friendship n love-

54. do u want kids one day and if so, how many- 2 ba.. I WAN TWINS!..

55. most important thing to u in a relationship- Trust and Of cause Understanding..

-other info-

56. thing u dislike abt urself the most- My attitude and temper..

57. worst feeling in the world- When I am living in my own world without anyone..

58. who u l0ve- Hm.. My DOG.. Ki kI!!

59. who u miss- No one..

60. who u like- NA.. No one..

Pig=Chatting=My leg...
Went out for Lunch with Stella, Si hua, Jeryl and Xu xu.. Eat At S11.. After that take bus service 17.. Stella went home after that.. Si hua followed.. Left me, Xu xu and Jeryl in the bus.. Xu slept all the way.. I woke up after Stella woke me up in the bus before she went off.. Went to Jeryl house.. He bath, then h play his game then we two talk talk.. Ya.. Then the dad and mum came back.. Stress.. Talking to the mum.. Scary.. Lol.. Nevermind.. Went off after that.. Took a cab hom with Him.. He go for his tuition.. I went off first.. I hurt my leg.. My mum say that I hurt my leg's vein.. Pain sia.. Should b going school tommorrow ba.. See how tommorrow ba.. Hop will better.. =) Took a few photos with my classmate.. Take a look.. Got to go..

Me and Nadirah.. Taken outside the Art room..

Nadirah, Hannah and me.. Taken also outside the art room..

I am 55% evil.

I'm getting there. I haven't done all the damage I could do but I've done quite a bit. I'm just over the border into the Evil Zone.

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Pig=School=Study..
I am thinking that I should put more time in my studies now.. Lol.. I wanna Concentrate More on it.. Very worry that I might Retain.. Lol.. So going to study more and pay more attention in classes and lessons.. Hm.. Was in school Even after school hours.. Was staying in the Canteen as we did not know where are we suppose to go.. Or should I say, no where to go??.. Lol.. Ya.. Time fly real fast.. When you are a facing a very sad or moodless time, the time will pass along very slow.. When you are very happy with your friends or relatives or whoever, The time will just pass so fast! Much more faster than anything.. Ya?.. Hm.. Nothing really happened much today.. Reach home around 4 plus?.. Washed Before going to my Sleep.. Lol.. Woke up around 8 plus ba.. Very Shiok.. The weather was just nice.. Not too hot, not too cold.. Ya.. Tired.. Still tired dont know why.. Haha... Ok.. I got to go..

Pig=Bugis=Fucking Idiot..
Went to Bugis with Da jie.. Meet mum at Bugis.. Alot of people went along too.. Mum friends.. Bought Mr Jeryl Ng present.. =) Ex.. LOl... Bought Four T-shirt.. Like them alot.. Went for Dinner in a Hotel.. Had alot of food.. Very tasty.. Da jie and Er jie took a few photos using my phone.. Take a look at the end of this blog.. Trying to be cute and Act Lian.. Lol.. Sounds like my Cousin, Shandy.. Da jie and Er jie also bought some Top and skirts..
Mum told me and Da jie a very shocking stuff.. Saying that my dad will be some sort of not working for the Fucking Buddist Temple anymore.. My Dad work's is Funeral.. Helping this TEMple.. Fucking Buddist..(Not to those who really are Buddist, this only goes to those in THAT Temple..) My dad use to give the temple around 30% of what he earn Normally.. But Now they are trying to say That the Temple get 60% of how much my dad get and my dad only get 40%.. This is not the Problem with it.. My dad dont mind about it.. But What is worst is that, THEY told my dad that My dad is only Suppose to get his pay EVERY 3 MONTHS.. WHAT THE FUck.. 3 MOnths??.. Crazy??.. How can it Be POSSIBLE??.. Then WHAT ARE WE GOING TO EAT FOR THAT THREE MONTHS??.. Fucking BUDDIST.. WHO YOU think you are??. YOU ARE not the Boss! WHAT GIVE YOU THE RIGHT! KNN.. CURSED YOU!.. GET bang by Car.. Fucker.. HOw I wish I can Burn the whole TEMPLE.. Hate Them.. Just one Bunch Of Fuckers.. Idiot.. Nb.. EVEN MY UNCLE IS HELPINg THIS IDIot.. My Uncle is only a dog.. NO.. Worse than one! Freak.. I dont wish to talk about it.. It only make me feel more ANGER.. Got to go..

My Er jie and Da jie.. Trying to act cute.. Lol..

My Er jie Trying to act lian, Then Da jie Trying to act cute..

Pig=Out=Bugis..
Todae had such a fun day out with Ah mei, Yvon, Stella an Jeryl.. Was having fun all the way.. Lol.. Very fun.. Play alot of GAmes.. Lol.. Around the world in 80 days and Bang Bang Bang.. We play in the Mrt.. Lol.. Alot of people was looking at us while we were playing.. We were laughing Damn loud.. After that when over to stella house there to have some chating session.. We were Talking about ghost.. Lol.. Then I was like steping on the floor and was like trying to call the ghost to come into my body.. Lol.. But it didnt work.. Lol.. Nevermind.. Had alot of fun.. Ya.. Ok.. Have some photo.. Take a look.. Ok.. Got to go..

Jeryl and me.. Having out dinner in Bugis..

Yvon and me.. Taken Somewhere near Stella block..

Pig=Photo=Ki ki..
Hm.. Going out later with Jeryl and Xu xu.. Not sure where to go.. Ki ki have been very crazy.. Pee at the leg of chairs, table and even the dustbin.. What the hell?.. Horny bastard.. Lol.. I dont really know what to write.. Anyway, found one photo.. Was taken when me and er jie were young.. Not sure who take it.. But this is a photo that was taken when we didnt notice.. Lol.. Take a look then.. I am fat at that time.. Lol.. Ok.. Got to go..

Me and Er jie.. Taken when we were Young!!

Pig=Quiet=home...
Didnt go to school todae.. Was late and I didnt go.. Dont wanna go to Detention... Lol.. Was like staying at home the whole day.. Peaceful.. Quiet..( Em.. Not Including my Grandma Yelling..) Mum was abit angry in the morning.. But was better after that.. Hm.. Playing computer.. Sleeping.. Ya.. Just woke up from my sleep.. Going to eat my dinner.. I sounds like a pig.. Eat and sleep.. Sleep and eat.. Lol.. ok.. Got to go..

Pig=Lonely=Ya...
I really dont know what I am at fault.. i didnt do anything wrong.. Maybe yes.. But Do you guys have to push me to the limit.. I have no way to go anymore.. Just because of such a small stuff, my Whole life change.. I didnt know what to do.. Really.. I am just alonely where ever I go.. Wih no friends, Nothing.. Now then I know, friends are not forever.. I didnt believe it last time, because around me there was this bunch of friends that I can really trust and also care for me.. But no more.. Ya.. I really dont know what to do.. I am just feeling so damn moodless.. Going home after everyday.. Really feel like ending my life.. Feel like... Crying.. Although I am big enough, but I think If I should cry, I will.. I am just too depressed.. I dont wish to say anymore..

Pig=Shut up=Tired..
I dont know.. Fan.. Evil.. Just shut the fuck up.. No mood.. Tired.. Busy..

PIg=Tired=Sian..
Went out with Jeryl.. Far East.. Bought a Jeans.. Fuck.. Cheat my money.. NB.. Dont wanna talk about it.. Sian.. Went to meet stella after that.. Went to Kfc.. Jeryl tuition.. Went off after awhile.. I went home.. Finish le LA.. SEE WHAT.. Got to go..

Pig=Sian=Shut up..
Rotting at home.. Dont wish to go out.. Maybe only for dinner.. Alone.. I dont know.. I dont have the mood.. Have been feeling very screw up this few days.. Argh.. Nevermind.. Dont msg me.. Dont call me.. I wish to be alone.. Got to go..

Pig=What a world=Stress..
People around me start to change.. I mean ya.. Some of you.. I dont know.. I just feel that some of you have change.. Maybe I think too much.. I am stress.. For being chairman of bowling.. I have me hearing alot of stuff that I dont like.. Of cause.. I am sure that you will also not like it when you hear it.. Nevermind..

Pig=Fan=YOU...

I dont know what you treat me as.. I dont know what I am in your heart.. You have been hurting me since the day I love you.. I am just like a idiot.. I shouldnt wait.. You made me wait.. BUt you still have him in your heart.. You have change.. Alot of people say so.. You have change.. You really did.. Your attitude.. The way you speaks.. You make me feel.. Real hurt.. Maybe you are doing this just to make me hate you.. What you do have been going well.. You get what you want... I somehow hate you now.. You make me hate you.. YOU REALLY MAKE ME HATE YOu..YES. I AM SO DISAPPOINTED. HATE YoU.. No MOOD.. Got to Go...

Pig=Ki ki=Problem Solve..
Ki ki breathing is back to Normal.. Real Glad.. Alot of problems are solve between some of us.. You guys should know who are you guys.. Was in the shool for 3 hours on friday.. Tired.. Super tired.. Only 8 people joined bowling.. What the fuck?.. I sit there for so long but only 8 people joined bowling??.. This is the reward I get?.. Argh.. Nevermind.. Went to Jeryl house since the mother wish to talk to me?.. I mean.. Em.. Ya.. Lol.. I dont know what to say.. I am happy that I can help you Jeryl, But you still own me a Meal... Remember when your mum spoke to my mum?.. Lol.. Hope you remember.. Yesterday went out with Jeryl..

Was shopping for his shirt yesterday for the up coming wedding dinner he is going to have.... I mean for his cousin wedding.. Ya.. But in the end, he didnt bought anything.. 0_=' Bought my school books.. Geography textbooks cost me aLMOST 16 BUCKS.. fUCK.. I Am broke.. ARgh.. Holy Christ... Went home after a long day of shopping.. Of cause, not for me.. Lol.. I dont blame you..

Todae.. Going to meet Jeryl at 1.30.. Lol.. But see.. I am still typing my blog without having my stuff done.. Lol.. I will be late... This is a confirm.. he is going for the wedding dinner later.. After meeting me.. Guess I am lonely after 4.30.. Maybe will be back home or shopping alone.. See my mood.. Or See the movie "Seed of Chucky".. Who knows?.. Ok.. I have to prepare myself.. Got to go..

Pig=Worry=Ki ki...
Someone please help.. I dont know what to do.. Ki ki Breathing is getting worse.. I just reach home.. When I am standing in front of my house door, I notice Ki ki did not greet me.. He was sleeping.. Although I know that there is nothing wrong with sleeping.. But Ki ki is very sensetive when anyone is back.. He didnt greet me and also I notice that his heart seems like pumping blood very hard.. It is pumping so hard that when he sleep, his whole body is shaking.. Hai.. I really dont know what to do.. He never eat his dinner this few days.. I dont have money.. I msg Eric, Ki ki use to be owner.. Pet shop owner.. He called me back, coz he also dote on Ki ki alot.. He say should be nothing.. Because when I let Ki ki out of his cage, He still can ran about at stuff.. Ya.. So should be nothing ba.. This is what he say... I feel better le.. I Really have to rbing him to the vet as soon as possible. I really hope I can bring him now.. But I no money.. What the hell??.. Nevermind.. Going back to school later.. Sec 1 orientation.. Coz I am the chairman.. Have to go.. Got to go..

I dont know what happen to you this few days..

You should know that I like you..

But I just feel that you change..

You have change alot..

I dont know what to do..

Pig=FUCK up=GRANDMA AGAIN!!!!...
That BITCH IS MAKING ME MAD... SHe made me quarrel with her.. She is the one.. SHE CALL JERYL TO GO HOME WHEN I DIDNT SAY ANYTHING.. WHO she Thinks she is??.. My mum didnt say anything, but she think she is big just because my mum is not AT HOME??.. Fuck her.. I dont have the mood.. She spoil my mood.. She fucking Bitch.. I mean Please.. You just go into your room and sleep and just shut up.. You think WE will wake you up??.. Go to hell! I dont think that 9pm is late.. I dont care.. If you think is late, SO?? You think I care??.. Huh??.. You think I care??.. That is your Problem.. I dont wish to know, neither do I wish to care.. FUCK YOU... I AM ANGRY.. Going Crazy if my life continue to be like this.. Got to go..

Pig=Tired=BORINg..
Was late for school todae with Stella and Jeryl.. But it seems like nothing happen.. Weird.. Lol.. Went to class.. Yean fu finally came to school.. Lol.. Em.. Did I say he didnt came to school yesterday??.. Lol.. Was very bore and tired.. Hai.. Ya.. Boring day in school.. Tons of stuff happen.. What a day I have.. I am worry for Ki ki.. I have just made dinner for him, but he didnt eat.. How could it be possible?.. Hai.. Dont know what will happen.. Scare.. Hai.. Got to go..

Pig=School Sux=Hate my class...
My day was bad todae.. Very bad.. My class is damn quiet.. I hate my class.. Now then I notice that I dont have much friends.. In my new class, I discovery that I only have Si hua, Stella, Yean fu and Aaron as good friends.. I dont have much friends then.. Life sucks in my class.. I am in a very boring class.. Hai.. I dont know.. Just feeling Fan la.. Still did not bought a number of books.. I can say.. Alot.. Lol.. Maybe going to buy tommorrow ba.. Have lunch with Jeryl, Stella, Si hua, Esther and Mei mei at Sumo house.. Alot of stuff happen, and of cause, none of them are good.. So I should not mention it.. I just reach home not long again.. Had my bath and type my blog.. Got to go..

Pig=Play station 2= School...
Bought Play station 2 todae.. Very slim.. Go and take a look.. It only weights about 900g.. Lol.. Bought it with Jeryl.. Thank you Esther.. =) Then Cut my hair.. Also dyed back my hair.. Hai.. Sian.. School start tommorrow le.. I am just bore.. I look very weird wearing long pants and school uniform.. Lol.. I look very much like a... Good Boi... LOl... I AM one anyway.. Ok.. Going to sleep le.. Got to go..

Pig=Sian=Ah ma house..
Went to my grandmother house todae.. Sian.. Stay till quite late.. Going to dye back my hair tommorrow.. Have a very bad sense that something will happen if I dont dye back my hair.. Reach home around 10 plus.. Play game.. Thanks ping and Si hua for your encouragement.. I think I spell wrongly.. I will not give up de.. Although I really feel like to.. Lol.. Ok.. I also dont know what I am doing.. Staying out damn late when I am suppose to meet my friend tommorrow.. Hahaa.. Nevermind.. Got to go..

I wish that you know that I am waiting for you..

I might not be as prefect as him..

But I will give my best to you..

I really hope you can give me a chance...

I will be waiting...