Sunday, October 31, 2010

Desmond= Confused..




I am, in fact, a person who always believe in every small little things in life. One thing bad about me? I trust people easily, in fact, too easily. That's why I'm always failing myself, getting upset over stuff I shouldn't be. I don't know, but I guess this is just me..

All I have now is nothing. I am confused. Which way to go? Which path should I take? All this are bad enough for me to handle but there's always something extra. Complications. This is driving me nuts.

I am worried about EVERYTHING. Every single thing that is happening or might happen.. Sigh..

CONCLUSION:
JUST LET ME GET OUT OF SINGAPORE ALREADY!!!

ARGH!!!


Sign off.


Friday, October 15, 2010

Desmond= The World should change their "Stereo-Type" thinking..

Look at this and I hope you guys will know what is happening in our current world..



Look at what is happening around the world.. Human beings who are straight or what you call "normal" does not understand what this is coming from. They don't know how much pain their are causing to people from the LGBT community. For a matter a fact, Gay people does not have a choice to be who they are today.

"A 13-year-old New Mexico boy named Seth Walsh, had been tormented for years, Burns said. “Other students told him ‘the world didn’t need another queer.’.”

Seth’s mother found him hanging in the backyard. He lived for nine days on life support before dying a few days ago."

Extracted from the link below:

http://www.dallasnews.com/sharedcontent/dws/dn/localnews/columnists/jfloyd/stories/101510dnmetfloyd.18d5a4bfb.html

He is only 13 year old. What have he done to deserve to die at such a young age? He is nothing but a teen who is confused about whatever he is feeling and has already been tortured inside, fighting to be what the world wants him to be. The above is just ONE of the teens that killed themselves due to all the cruelty coming from the world.


1 out of 10 human are born gay and what are they facing in the world today? Getting humiliate by straight people, getting bullied and the fear they have to face everyday from the outside world. Why do people like us get this? We don't deserve this. What we need is something really simple and basic called "Respect".

You will never understand how we feel since you're not born with it. You people got to understand that WE DON'T DESERVE THIS SHIT. We don't deserve all this. Why do we have to be the one? Why don't you put yourself in our shoes?

I have been trying to come out from my closet. I am a Bisexual and I like mens more than womens. Most of my friends know about this. And even my siblings and yet, I don't see anyone hating me for who I am.

I just doesn't have the guts yet to come out to my parents. I don't wish to hurt my mum.. I just can't. Simply because I love her too much. I do not wish to see her blaming herself and stuff. I just don't see the point.

Maybe one of this days, when I'm in a stable relationship and found someone that I'm confident enough to get married with, I will let my mum knows about this eventually. But now is just not the time yet.

It has always been a huge fear for me to accept myself for who I am. I choose not to believe I like men more than women due to the thinking of the world. After been through so much alone, I decided to only come out to people last year. And it makes me feel better.

I believe there are people who definitely doesn't accept the truth about me, but at least, I gain respect from them. It took me quite a long time to even figure out who I am, of course, it was never easy. I even have thoughts of ending my life because I doesn't know how to face everyone. How everyone will look and think about me.

The worst? I have no one to talk to. It was really hard and I doubt anyone will understand how I was feeling at the point of time unless you are from the LGBT community. But at least I am lucky enough to overcome the fear but there are still thousands or even millions of people who doesn't know how to face this and could only result to ending their very own lives..

So please.. We just need the world to accept everyone and we don't need your sympathy. All we need is a little respect and accept us for who we are. I really have to say this again, people from the LGBT community doesn't have a choice to be who they are today but at least we are brave enough to accept ourselves.

Sigh, I don't know who is gonna read this and how they are gonna react about this. Knowing about the real me..

Sign off.